A new year. So overwhelming. I woke up this morning overly anxious and worried. I couldn't focus on any of the positive things the new year might hold for us. I was too worried about the possible negatives. I had a meltdown at 10 am...I finally pulled myself together enough to consider how great I felt yesterday and realized a few things that I'd done that helped me past my anxiety yesterday. Exercising was one of those things. I haven't been able to get back up to full walking speed when I exercise since I had bronchitis back at Thanksgiving until yesterday. It's taken me that long for my lungs to "fully heal"...how crazy! But hitting that goal yesterday and just exercising in general made me feel so good.
Sometimes this anxiety is just nearly debilitating. If I can't shake it with this steady exercise (which I have had to cut back on since being sick but and finally back up to par), then I think I'll have to go back to my doctor for help with things....but I really think the exercise can do it.
I'm excited to try to focus on the positives that could happen this year. There are a few things I'd like to work on:
-Being outside more in general
-Keeping up our healthier lifestyle. It went out the window at Christmas, which I enjoyed, but know my body needs the more healthful fuel it's had in the last few months to really do great things
-Being at church more frequently and asking more questions
-Be more patient and loving towards Daniel and Abigail. Not a doormat, but just in a more peaceful frame of mind
-Read at least one book a month
-Spend two evenings a month with Daniel as date night (don't have to go out) and one day or evening a month as a date with just Abigail....I crave time with her right now. She is getting so big so fast and I don't want to regret not spending time with her.
-Helping others and being more free with my time, at the same time, more protective over it. It's hard to explain this one but I think most mom's get it.
-Keep my mouth shut more often and just listen.
-Keep a written journal too....I love my journals from high school and college.
Just a few thoughts as this year is starting off....sorry it's sort of rambly.